Extremely Extreme

Most people have some kind of buffer in their mind, some moderator that limits their emotions to a normal level. I have nothing of the sort. I honestly cannot remember the last time I liked or disliked anything. I love it or I hate it. Either I'm extremely passionate about something or I don't care at all. Its a lot like the case of people who see the world in terms of black and white, good and evil. Except that I am not one of those people, I recognize the middle ground of good and evil. I see the shades of gray from a moral and ethical standpoint. I am however a total emotional extremist. I love you I hate you or I don't give a damn, and there is no middle ground to be had. I know stop and careening degree of fast. I think it may be why I isolate myself from people so badly, because people perceive me overreacting or taking big jumps when to me it only a small step from where I already was. On top of all that I find my motivation is generally never what anyone would believe it to be, so all the confusion is compounded twice over. I should be in bed by now but I'm not tired at all, in another hour I'll probably be completely exhausted.