Savage Hunt

I returned to my love from so many years away and alone
To find that the war had struck all the way to my home
And as I searched through the carnage of buildings torn apart
I found my truelove on an altar with a dagger though her heart
I lifted her from her place of rest to hold her in my arms
And called to my inner savage to hunt for the cause of her harm
I could smell the decrepit souls in their forsaken mortal shell
I drew the savage power from an endless inner well
I vowed a vengence on the flesh their all spilled for mine
And torment on their souls eternally after life
I channel souls of gods which make me indestructible
Making pacts to ward the calls of heaven or of hell
My battle cry rings through the night and makes the culprits flee
But theres nowhere to hide and nowhere to run and no safe place to be
This long dark tunnel is all the is left with no light to be seen
And when there is it will only be the freight train that is me
No setback to me will long delay the ending of your life
Asleep one day youll wake to the flashing of my knife
Your every moment remaining youll know that i am on the hunt
With a vengeance that time and sorrow will never be able to blunt
Revenge is the only thing that will sate my wrath this day
To shred the souls of my enemies and any who bar my way
I'll rend the flesh and spill the blood and brutally destoy
The bodies and the souls who thought they could enjoy
Desecrating the flesh and ending the life
Of the one who could change the world in my sight
And when every single one of you lies in eternal sleep
Ill live my life out mourning in peace
Ill finish my years on this earth alone
And then go to the hell which will be your home
Where my light shall again be the only you see
Reliving that hunt for eternity!

Regrets

I am fairly certain I could count the things I regret in this life on one hand. I have no real desire to recollect them and the people who have been hurt know who they are. A couple of them have been gnawing at me lately and I'm trying to concieve some way to repair the damage done by them. Not much else left to be said on this until i come up with a solution. It is important to live without regrets

Not the Vacation I was Hoping For

Got my appendix removed the other day. Went into the doc with some major gut pain. they gut it out and now i get a couple days off, then ill be ridin a desk.

People as Predators and Prey

People are an interesting species. Animals tend to follow concrete social behaviors that fit with their niche on the food chain. Humans tend to follow the same kinds of social behaviors, the difference being that members of our species follow behaviors fitting all of the levels of the food chain. Some individuals even cross between one and another but most people tend to follow one basic behavior pattern. And while the specifics of the arena may be different. The spirit of it is much the same as it is with wild animals.

Prey animals society almost universally runds in groups or herds. Their means for survival always works one of two ways. In the first scenario the strangest member of the herd acts to protect the herd while the rest huddle together and hide. The second and more common method is that the weakest members are left behind and taken while the group huddles together for protection. By this means the greater good of the group is served by the work or sacrifice of a selected few. Human social behavior usually follows the preys path.

Scavengers feed off of the trash left behind by predators and other natural cause. They tend to run in massive swarms and will nearly tear eachother to shreds to get at raw carrion. Theres is by far the simplest and least refined society, there is no real unity or role except the unified drive to feed. Scavenger behavior is most seen in people during crisis situations or places with generally shitty living.

Predators normally follow one of two social patterns. They are either a pack or a solo hunter. A pack is a far smaller and neater unit than a herd. It has a clear cut chain of authority from top to bottom, and every member works in cohesion. There is no member of the pack who can be sacrificed. Every member from the weakest to the strongest pulls their own weight. And with this method a small pack can consistantly harry a much larger herd and remain the victors. In human society this behavior has rarely been seen outside militant organizations.

Solo predators socialize far less than the others. Mostly for the purposes of breeding or raising young. The solo predators themselves are by far the most complete individuals of all. They are stronger, faster, and stealthier than other animals. Their minds and senses are sharpened for their to fit their lot in life. Many solo predators have a notably higher success rate even than pack hunters do. Real solo predatory mentalitys are probably the rarest people on earth.

Last few days

Had a big pig roast a few days ago, which was fun. I got to show both of my LTs about 2 minutes apiece of swing dancing. I need to practice more I hadnt danced at all in a couple years Now I'm moving over to night shift, where with any luck I will be able to get google currency tonight. Not much new to report otherwise.

Its Time Again

I've been on a real short fuse lately, which is fine by me. But today I caught myself insulting someone to someone else, and that is unacceptable. I know how to direct my rage in the proper direction. I of all people know to direct my anger at its cause and not take it out on others. I find it is time to realign again.

The Circle of Life

The wheel continues to turn and people will always come in and out of our lives. All that is left to us is to keep the memories made and the lessons they teach us. And though we will always wish to create new memories, we can always at least keep the lives weve had with people forever. However upsetting the outcome may be, the good will always have been there. It is only lost if you let it be.